Hey...Its me.. n just me... Its my first blog.. Have read couple of blogs in last few days, and then thought, can i too ??? And said Yeah.. why not.. If not as interesting as the ones i read, may be it improve my writing skills... wht say ? And then i remember my good old diary.... don't know where it is these days ........ with a strange name... Definitely strange enough for people whom i told, but also for myself.. !!!
What was so stange about that ?? The name, which i have given to my Diary, which i've choosen very randomly, not sure from where and why, may be some thoughts, inspiration, funny or silly moment, or bollywood inspiration, but I did give that name to my Diary, and it lived with me for years together, and even now...
Probably name was something what i wanted then, some visual living companion, with whom i used to talk, laugh and even cry with, So definitely name needs to be real, and lively. If not really, atleast should have sounded like one.
And then almost every evening, after a tough (was it really ? well, may be then, but doesn't seem now) day, i use to miss everything on earth, which my not be mine... And those romantic songs on the balcony of the hostel blocks.... with mein aur meri tanhayeee.... And sometime gals over hearing my converstaion or songs with/for myself.. and commenting she is definitely in love.... :) And me just smiling... But was i sad those days... Not really.. ????? Then whats was that.. that was me being lonley, and was tryng to cope with my lonliness.... But was i really lonely... Not sure in visual terms, as i was a pert of 12 frens group, and everyone use to know me, and i was one of the most busy person out there...!!!! Then wherz the time for being loneley...... But it was something really strange, but i have seen and felt the lonliness among the crowd, in between the people whom i known, and it was very strange then, but now I'm kindda used to it. (I'M LYING) .............nope thats the only thing which i couldn't conquer in past 6 years, just with the difference being, previously i was into it, without completely knowing it. Today I completely know it, and try to play hide n seek with it.. But still I'm scared of it.. And my dream is to Enjoy with it one Day... And I know i'm on the way to chase that dream of mine... And i feel thats the biggest mission of my life.... Coz if i can't enjoy my own company, I am not independent in real terms. I wanna learn to be Happy with myself.
This is again one step towards my journey to chase my dream :)
Hey Meanwhile on every step Keep Smilin :)
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nice n fresh..
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